at this point, what i really want is to find some way to support myself through preparing my suicide. its amazing how much effort has to go into preparing for an intentional death, in order to not leave lots of loose ends everywhere. all of the legal issues and preparations for what happens afterwards are overwhelming. although i dont really have any interest in the "pretty" aspect of it all or documentation, it just would be nice to have a consulting group or somebody who could help organize things for such an event.
its too bad this is just a hoax. i would pay for those sorts of logistical support services.